http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/ i wont stop wondering until i stop breathing - LiveJournal.com jeremy_stout@hotmail.com Mon, 03 Aug 2009 12:07:17 GMT LiveJournal / LiveJournal.com justapaintingon 956196 personal http://l-userpic.livejournal.com/27961066/956196 http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/ 100 100 http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/205144.html Mon, 03 Aug 2009 12:07:17 GMT jeremy_stout@hotmail.com http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/205144.html <p>Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you</p><p>I am sick of feeling, and dragging on. This death grip has to fucking go. I'm withering and colding.</p><p><em><small>Posted via <a href="http://community.livejournal.com/cosysoftware_en/">LiveJournal.app</a>.</small></em></p> http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/205144.html public 0 http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/204686.html Mon, 03 Aug 2009 07:10:36 GMT jeremy_stout@hotmail.com http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/204686.html <p>It doesn't matter if I cut my hair, brush my teeth, or change clothes, these things are all for other people. They do make me feel better, but it's really in the same class to me as a case of the "fuck it's" right now. It won't help or hurt, no one cares or would notice if done or not so it doesn't matter. It hurts not being noticed, it is lonely. It makes for a good self destructive attitude. If I had a reason that made me want to try. Things would be easier without erection detection. Fuck my wants and needs.</p><p><em><small>Posted via <a href="http://community.livejournal.com/cosysoftware_en/">LiveJournal.app</a>.</small></em></p> http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/204686.html misunderstood public 0 http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/204457.html Mon, 03 Aug 2009 06:19:30 GMT jeremy_stout@hotmail.com http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/204457.html <p>Stoutski outski!</p><p><em><small>Posted via <a href="http://community.livejournal.com/cosysoftware_en/">LiveJournal.app</a>.</small></em></p> http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/204457.html public 0 http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/204209.html Mon, 03 Aug 2009 06:19:29 GMT jeremy_stout@hotmail.com http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/204209.html <p>Stoutski outski!</p><p><em><small>Posted via <a href="http://community.livejournal.com/cosysoftware_en/">LiveJournal.app</a>.</small></em></p> http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/204209.html public 0 http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/203794.html Mon, 03 Aug 2009 04:50:08 GMT jeremy_stout@hotmail.com http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/203794.html <p>I need something real not stupid Internet, everyone and everything in text form is all lies and a fiction that someone has writing. Your actions are a truth, and it's the comfort that we share is honesty.</p><p><em><small>Posted via <a href="http://community.livejournal.com/cosysoftware_en/">LiveJournal.app</a>.</small></em></p> http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/203794.html public 0 http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/203729.html Sun, 02 Aug 2009 21:31:44 GMT jeremy_stout@hotmail.com http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/203729.html <p>Goal. Find another person as helpless as me.</p><p><em><small>Posted via <a href="http://community.livejournal.com/cosysoftware_en/">LiveJournal.app</a>.</small></em></p> http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/203729.html public 0 http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/203268.html Sun, 02 Aug 2009 17:05:17 GMT jeremy_stout@hotmail.com http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/203268.html <p>Please shutdown, take me from all of this confusion and lonliness. I couldn't ask for anything more than an endless sleep.</p><p>My heart is starting to heart, maybe atleast my death dreams will come true.</p><p><em><small>Posted via <a href="http://community.livejournal.com/cosysoftware_en/">LiveJournal.app</a>.</small></em></p> http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/203268.html public 0 http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/203259.html Sun, 02 Aug 2009 17:01:18 GMT jeremy_stout@hotmail.com http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/203259.html <p>Whadup crazy selfcentered California, please god help me forgot about all this I have surrounded myself with. All I have created, I need not to care about old feelings. It's dragging bringing my health down and hurting my job. I want to feel real and semi important, I'm doing with feeling like a tool for people. "All I ever wanted was to pick apart the day and put the pieces back together my way."</p><p><em><small>Posted via <a href="http://community.livejournal.com/cosysoftware_en/">LiveJournal.app</a>.</small></em></p> http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/203259.html public 0 http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/202981.html Sun, 02 Aug 2009 13:53:32 GMT jeremy_stout@hotmail.com http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/202981.html <p>Keep on meowing kitty... Your lonliness makes me smile. Why don't you have any direction in life besides affection and food. You are stupid cat, no one wants to give love it's a tuff world so learn quickly this last month of meowing lonliness won't matter when your heart colds over and you don't care about being neglected anymore. As a pro I'll school you, but even I too can't stop meowing when I'm lonely. Only difference, I'll comfert you.</p><p><em><small>Posted via <a href="http://community.livejournal.com/cosysoftware_en/">LiveJournal.app</a>.</small></em></p> http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/202981.html public 0 http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/202732.html Sun, 02 Aug 2009 13:00:12 GMT jeremy_stout@hotmail.com http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/202732.html <p>Neglection is a powerful thing.</p><p><em><small>Posted via <a href="http://community.livejournal.com/cosysoftware_en/">LiveJournal.app</a>.</small></em></p> http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/202732.html public 0 http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/202486.html Sun, 02 Aug 2009 12:57:47 GMT jeremy_stout@hotmail.com http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/202486.html <p>Basically I love hearing my cat cry for attention, it reminds me of when I was sad no one would comfert me. Fuck this world and the people In it.</p><p><em><small>Posted via <a href="http://community.livejournal.com/cosysoftware_en/">LiveJournal.app</a>.</small></em></p> http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/202486.html public 0 http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/202124.html Sun, 02 Aug 2009 07:27:04 GMT jeremy_stout@hotmail.com http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/202124.html <p>Goddamn, I would kill for someone to want dedication. Not in a materialist country. It's not possible for me to find happiness here. People are so selfcentered I thought they cared, I thought people felt real feelings. People only feel what they are fed.</p><p><em><small>Posted via <a href="http://community.livejournal.com/cosysoftware_en/">LiveJournal.app</a>.</small></em></p> http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/202124.html public 2 http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/201910.html Sun, 02 Aug 2009 06:09:03 GMT jeremy_stout@hotmail.com http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/201910.html <p>That's the last I'll take from a drug addicted bro bitch, you aren't good enough for anything that are in your aspirations. Fuck your life and how I wanted to help it.</p><p><em><small>Posted via <a href="http://community.livejournal.com/cosysoftware_en/">LiveJournal.app</a>.</small></em></p> http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/201910.html public 0 http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/201624.html Sun, 02 Aug 2009 03:09:29 GMT jeremy_stout@hotmail.com http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/201624.html <p>Keep talking shit about me to retards it makes you look hella cool</p><p><em><small>Posted via <a href="http://community.livejournal.com/cosysoftware_en/">LiveJournal.app</a>.</small></em></p> http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/201624.html public 0 http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/201274.html Sat, 01 Aug 2009 15:25:46 GMT jeremy_stout@hotmail.com http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/201274.html <p>Women and cats will do as they please men and dogs should get used to it...</p><p><em><small>Posted via <a href="http://community.livejournal.com/cosysoftware_en/">LiveJournal.app</a>.</small></em></p> http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/201274.html public 0 http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/201089.html Thu, 30 Jul 2009 16:54:17 GMT jeremy_stout@hotmail.com http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/201089.html <p>When I think of you, I get a rusty taste in my<br />mouth.</p><p><em><small>Posted via <a href="http://community.livejournal.com/cosysoftware_en/">LiveJournal.app</a>.</small></em></p> http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/201089.html public 0 http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/200838.html Thu, 30 Jul 2009 16:54:17 GMT jeremy_stout@hotmail.com http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/200838.html <p>When I think of you, I get a rusty taste in my<br />mouth.</p><p><em><small>Posted via <a href="http://community.livejournal.com/cosysoftware_en/">LiveJournal.app</a>.</small></em></p> http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/200838.html public 0 http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/200700.html Wed, 29 Jul 2009 17:29:11 GMT jeremy_stout@hotmail.com http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/200700.html <p>Let my soul escape my body. I'm sick of being here with all this pain and confusion. All the drink I have, bowls I smoke, money I spend doesn't help ME feel real or any better. I want to escape to where our bodies don't matter and to where people uncondtionally love each other. I'm done being alone. It's boring, stupid, and a waste of my time. I feel alone around everyone, only a few people care how I am, everyone else is too proud of who they are and in love with themselves. It's changing how I care about people, no one gives a fuck so why should I? Someone will steal from my and my friends, then respect is takin from everyone. I'm being defeated by my own brain that doesn't want to be alone and is dying to interact with other brains. No one I can't make myself do anything anymore. I hope my time here is limited. I'm honestly done beating myself up, but there's only myself to blame. In this life it's only you. So fuck yourself. We are all going to die eventually. This game can't last forever, I hope I beat it soon.</p><p><em><small>Posted via <a href="http://community.livejournal.com/cosysoftware_en/">LiveJournal.app</a>.</small></em></p> http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/200700.html public 0 http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/199949.html Wed, 29 Jul 2009 02:53:10 GMT jeremy_stout@hotmail.com http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/199949.html <p>Please god, let me actually be accepted by the female race this lonely lonesome longing loner is going to become very unwilling to even try for a future. I'm so empty. I Know I bitch and complain all the time but I feel no puropse or will to feel anything but numb. Cumbersome</p><p><em><small>Posted via <a href="http://community.livejournal.com/cosysoftware_en/">LiveJournal.app</a>.</small></em></p> http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/199949.html public 0 http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/199695.html Mon, 27 Jul 2009 18:07:24 GMT jeremy_stout@hotmail.com http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/199695.html <p>she calls me goliath and i wear the david mask <br />i guess the stones are coming too fast for her now <br />you know I'd like to believe this nervousness will pass <br />all the stones that are thrown are building up a wall <br />I have become cumbersome to this world <br />I have become cumbersome to my girl </p><p><br />I'd like to believe we could reconcile the past <br />resurrect those bridges with an ancient glance <br />but my old stone face can't seem to bring her down <br />she remembers bridges, burns them to the ground <br />I have become cumbersome to this world <br />I have become cumbersome to my girl </p><p><br />too heavy too light, too black or too white, too wrong or too right, today or <br />tonight <br />cumbersome <br />too rich or too poor, she's wanting me less and I'm wanting her more <br />the bitter taste is cumbersome </p><p><br />there is a balance between two worlds <br />one with an arrow and a cross <br />regardless of the balance life has become <br />cumbersome</p><p><em><small>Posted via <a href="http://community.livejournal.com/cosysoftware_en/">LiveJournal.app</a>.</small></em></p> http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/199695.html public 0 http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/199524.html Wed, 22 Jul 2009 19:16:59 GMT jeremy_stout@hotmail.com http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/199524.html <p>I need some who I use more than a three pack of condoms in a month on, I need and want to give more than that. It's actually kinda fun and healthy to have sex.</p><p><em><small>Posted via <a href="http://community.livejournal.com/cosysoftware_en/">LiveJournal.app</a>.</small></em></p> http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/199524.html public 0 http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/199152.html Tue, 21 Jul 2009 20:19:22 GMT jeremy_stout@hotmail.com http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/199152.html <p>We would have been young forever</p><p><em><small>Posted via <a href="http://community.livejournal.com/cosysoftware_en/">LiveJournal.app</a>.</small></em></p> http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/199152.html public 0 http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/198823.html Tue, 21 Jul 2009 20:19:22 GMT jeremy_stout@hotmail.com http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/198823.html <p>We would have been young forever</p><p><em><small>Posted via <a href="http://community.livejournal.com/cosysoftware_en/">LiveJournal.app</a>.</small></em></p> http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/198823.html public 0 http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/198651.html Tue, 21 Jul 2009 17:38:54 GMT jeremy_stout@hotmail.com http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/198651.html <p>Atleast I'm not a quitter</p><p><em><small>Posted via <a href="http://community.livejournal.com/cosysoftware_en/">LiveJournal.app</a>.</small></em></p> http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/198651.html public 0 http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/198146.html Tue, 21 Jul 2009 17:38:54 GMT jeremy_stout@hotmail.com http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/198146.html <p>Atleast I'm not a quitter</p><p><em><small>Posted via <a href="http://community.livejournal.com/cosysoftware_en/">LiveJournal.app</a>.</small></em></p> http://justapaintingon.livejournal.com/198146.html public 0